The DM Abides

“The only thing that’s ever stopping me is me” -Fall Out Boy, Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea

Well, proved that yesterday with the one-shot.

It felt natural… but I gave myself a day to process it before searching for conclusions to draw. I have not lost any of the joy I felt at the immediate conclusion. It felt like something I could flow and roll with, and I felt like i could do it “my way,” but still effectively.

Its the joy of the “what do you think?” and the pleasure of the “yes, and?”

I was in control of the moment but I was not in charge.

I am less a dungeon master, and more a self-aware narrator. And I think it suits me to pursue my “style” as such.

I’m lucky. I know about the “Mercer Effect” and how a lot of DMs get down on themselves for not being that guy. Listen, he’s wonderful, and I love what he does.

But I’m more trying to be Sam Elliott in “The Big Lebowski,” so I get to dodge that pressure.

The DM Abides, man.

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